Hi everyone its been along time.. well I moved to South Dakota thats right I made it! Im soo happy here im even in college.. its a community college but I am getting my life together to become, a Nurse.. I really want to be a nurse for new borns.. so hopefully I will become that in the future.. I am so happy I got my life together, and I met this guy name rick, He goes to school with me and is studying to become a dentist, odd huh, neways he is so nice he is 25 and tall and soo cute.

Your probably wondering how i got all this, well I told my parents I wanted to go to South Dakota and they totally said its fine, and gave me some money to start with, and I got an apartment and now Im living with a roomate her name is Janet, and she is soo nice she also goes to school too, she is just taking General right now. But South Dakota si great, nice people and great sites to look at.. Im finally happy..

Yesturday Rick asked me out and we went out on a date it was perfect, I dont want to tell him about my life though it will make him run away, since my life lest face it isnt real good to look back on! well I gotta go to school now so talk later bye!

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Life is so wierd sometimes.. I try new things and yet I still get shuned for them why, I dont know... Im done with Wicca Im done with Sonya Im done with everything.. I moved out and now am living at my parents again... I did not see that coming did you.. I dont talk to sonya because she and I started somthing but then I got really grossed out at the end, and I had to stop it but instead she kicks me out because of it, I started cutting myself again, yes thats right and Im not proud of it either.. but I am.. Im planning on getting out of here Arkansas I mean and going to South Dakota, I have friends there, so wish me luck on that hopefully by the time I get there the crap will already be gone.. and I can live again.....

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Well I got some.. I know that sounds really stupid but remember that date I had with sam... He and I hit it off so well not to mention we have the same name, well kinda! So anyways he took me to this great restraunt and we talked for like 3 hours I am not kidding he is a Travel agent and true he is a little older than me but who cares.. he is 30 and I am 22 so really it dosent make really a big difference right? Well He then took me home and he kissed me in the car, I said goodbye and went home but then he kept calling me like everyday after that so we went out a lot more! And yesturday he took me to his house from the movies we saw "The Forgotten." such a good movie BTW! And I went iside and his place is huge, Big bedroom too, Well we started Making out really bad on his bed.. and he was touching me and It felt really great.. So one thing led to another I ended up sleeping with him 4 times he was so great too, He lasted alot longer than any guy I have ever been with.. He probably lasted for 1 hour, He felt incredible too I couldnt believe how much I needed it you know! Oh and we used protection so its ok! Well He dropped me off at home the next morning after taking me to breakfast.. He is so great, although he hasnt called yet but it was only yesturday.. He doesnt know about my past though I really dont want to tell him either its just a horrible thing to tell someone you know! Hopefully he will call you know! I have been studying my Wiccan Its been getting better hopefully I will be as good as Sonya She always tells me I am really good but who knows... She looks at me kind of wierd and I wasnt goingto say anything but like when we are alone she smiles at me the way Sam smiles at me after sex! I really hope she isnt gay well I mean she had a boyfriend so I dont know, Not that there is anything bad with that its just I am not and I dont want to hurt her feelings if she makes a pass at me you know!

Well I am off to go shopping so see yall later bye!

 Sam

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Carl found me... It scared the crap out of me. He snuck into my house or my friends house and shook me awake but he had a knife in his hand... Thank goodness Sonya called the Cops he was arested after of course slapping me... My cheak still hurts... I cant beleve he found me now what am I going to do when he gets out of jail... all i keep hearing in my head is him screaming "Sam I will find you, and when I do I will kill you you broke a promise" I am so scared Sonya said there is no way he is going to come back she said she put a good spirit to gaurd the house... But i dont know anymore... I am so scared that I might just runaway but I have friends... Carl might come back and I thought let me go easy too... see when I left...He was like go I dont need you you can do better without me... I mean sure he slapped me a couple times but he said I didnt have to come back, Well then he pulls a stunt like this and freaks out, I know he was High of course he was... His eyes were so far off it wasnt funny! the cops probably found stuff too I really wasnt paying attintion when they frisked him...

I feel so scared I have to read more of my wiccan book to help me calm down... He gets out thursday can you beleve that after pulling a knife on me and slapping me they let him out in three days I hate our judicial system... I also met someone too... His name is Sam He is so adorable he asked me out yesturday and we are going out tomorrow after he gets off work... He is Tall and thin and has Short Blonde hair... His smile is so tasty... his body oh my lets just say he is "Do"Able! I cant wait till our date but I am a little nervous I havent really Dated since crap along time so I hope I dont screw this up to bad! Well i have to get some sleep Im still shaking from Carl but I think I will be fine I hope I dont know what to do please tell me how I can get past this ugh!

 Sam